I decided to make yet another blog, but this time, I have no rules. I'm tired of rules, I'm tired of being restricted, and I'm tired of always being on an agenda. There's not a lot of times in my life where I can be completely spontaneous and just do whatever the hell I want, so I figured the best place to start is with a blog. Lol, shows how "wild" I am, huh? The fact that my idea of coloring outside the lines is to make a blog that has no particular focus. Hey, at least I'm not snorting any coke.
Fall semester has arrived and unlike previous semesters, I am already exhausted before anything's begun. This summer has made me work harder than I have ever worked in my entire 21 years of existence. Balancing an unpaid internship in Santa Monica, sorority, Anime Expo, Daily 49er, and Starbucks really took a lot out of me. And usually I have some crazy energy and drive to get me through it, but honestly, I'm feeling like this is the first time I'm genuinely getting tired from everything. Not in the sense where I wanna quit and just take the easy road, but that I just wanna hide away in my room and hibernate like a bear. I think it's because this past summer, I realized I grew up, and real life doesn't have moments where you can screw the rules and just live care-free of any responsibilities. When I realized that moment, I got kinda scared and a little sad. But then I got super excited, and I fell in love with the thrill of being busy and always having something to do. I think I've always been like this - it's just that now I'm older and not that naive 18-year-old straight out of high school who thinks she can fuck with the system. The system can easily fuck you over. You just need to bring out that survival instincts and street-smarts out of you and stand your ground. Once you know how to do that, you can breathe in the fresh air and strut your confident self around because you've earned it.
But sadly, I'm not there yet. I still have until next May until I graduate. Until then, I'm going to do everything in my power to summon some energy out of me so I can go about every task and responsibility like a boss. Oh and there's also the whole eat right, sleep early, work out BS that I'm trying to do too. I've started working out more frequently, but the challenge is to keep that drive going the entire semester. I'm contemplating on blogging about my weight loss journey. We'll see. If the next post you see is a picture of my beer belly, then you know it's game on. If not, well, I'm slowly getting there. It's hard to give up my love-borderline-obsession with hot cheetos and takis. and tacos. and french fries.
I will conclude my thoughts with this ridiculous video of some kids singing about their love of hot cheetos and takis. Knowing me, if I was 13-years-old, I would totally be that girl in the pink.
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